My dog ate my posting ability....

Well, at the moment it seems that i am averaging about 1.5 posts a month on this little guy, and i will blame my innatentive blogging praxis is mostly due to the fact that my job has picked up speed and i don't have nearly the time to sit and think about what i want to share with a large congregation of strangers (and my entire extended family, on all three sides, apparently) and even less time to splay it out in words.

so, suffice to say, i am going nutty for mutliple reasons, most of which including a) work b) securing a mortgage for c) the townhouse that liz and i are closing on in the middle of May, and i think there is a d) wedding coming up this summer that i was told to be at. hmm. for the sake of pragmatisicm i will tackle each topic in a very organized manner...

a) The full time part of the phrase 'I work Full time' has begun to swing into effect. While the one thing that i tell any cadets or up and coming officers into the air force is that they need to basically forget everything that they learned for there degree, and destroy any expectations of the common picture that is drawn up when you say you are going into the military, it doesn't mean that i find myself leaving my office everyday with immediate morning plans to accomplish whatever it was that didn't get done by five that day. It also doesn't change my conviction that i don't really want to spend the rest of my proffesional life building this military career ( there was a memo from higher headquarters today that informed us that they were begining another wave of cuts, over 10% alone of my career field), but i do have some innate fears of losing a steady paycheck and also for finding a grad school to go to. I guess i need to trust in that the grand scheme of things i have no real control over my life -- and that this God i pray to indeed has my best interests at heart.

b) I've seen my name next to hundreds of thousands of dollars as of late, and for some reason it doesn't scare me as much as it did a few weeks ago, when it caused catharsis in most of my limbs and a scream in my throat. This is growing up, right? Yikes.

c) speaking of bullet B this is for the Fort Collins Kids: I am going to be a colorado resident, at least, transitioning into one begining on the 15th of May. No joke. It will cause me a 30-35 minute commute every morning and eve, but i cannot wait to do it. (Funny note, this was the length of commute that i had for a majority of my jobs when i lived back home in Michigan, the difference was that it was due to traffic and winding roads that weren't direct over 20 or so miles, this commute is straight north and straight south, and will be nearly 50 miles each way. This is why i drive a mini, i just didn't quite know it at the time i bought it.)

We will be in the new development up on the northeast side of town, on Vine directly next to I25. It is the green sided townhouses that you see when you cruise up the freeway, and i cannot wait to move in. In fact, i have a meeting with my realtor at the property this afternoon to do another cursory inspection and go over the mortgage contract that i got in the mail yesterday. (wow. That's one heck of a sentence.)

d) countdown: 77 days to go, and while it does NOT feel like the time has slipped on by, (please refrain from sharing that bit of advice, if you don't mind.) it feels all too close to July 1 -- but the ache that the day would come quicker is a much stronger sensation.

I gave this advise the other night: a three month engagement is juuuuust about right. 11 months? mmm...... i would pass.

and to make this entry complete, i will add a picture that my mom made very clear she absolutely NEEDED to be taken last week when i was in Dayton for a week for another AF class, and miss liz, mom, and both brothers came to visit before i left. It's something odd that i haven't thought through yet, but Matt told me he wanted the picture too, seeing as how he should get to know his new sister sometime. Oh, yeah, this whole affects more than just me....

Such an amazing amount of update goodness deserves a comment or ten - i'd best read some greetings this evening upon my return from the first day of soccer practice.